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Posted on July 20, 2014
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'Her' Inspired

Ok, I’ll start out by saying that I’m not at all desperate, I have a lot of friends and stuff. A lot of them have grown up and got real jobs and are too busy to hang out and chat during the day now. I’m at home with my parents over the summer.

A couple of weeks ago I spent 4 or 5 days without speaking to anyone (family aside) and was pretty bored (and dare I say) lonely. Consequently I ended up thinking too much and just thought that there’s a pretty good chance that this could just be my life after I get out of uni. This is a little grim and I’d like someone to chat to and no more! I don’t think that’s asking a lot. It could be anyone, anywhere these days. I feel like I would be better chatting to a girl as I’d feel as if I could talk about anything. -I have a hard time being completely honest to lads (no idea why!)

Now, I know that you’re thinking “why not just have a relationship?”
It’s just because I don’t want any of the stuff that goes with them. Literally just someone to chat to. That probably sounds selfish but whatever. Samantha from the film ‘Her’ would be ideal. Any advice or input?
EDIT: One of my friends just used a word which simplifies what I’m looking for: platonic

Sorry for the soppiest post ever,
-Leo
[/genuine person time]

Posted on July 12, 2014
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Anonymous said: I disagree with your post, you're not self centered and although the memory thing is a challenge its not a game stopper. You just need to make little allowances for yourself because it was you are being a bit tough on yourself. Your presence alone means millions to people. Love Nik xo

Cheers Nik. The thing is that I don’t want to be using it as a crutch for things. I’m dead straight talking because there is no progression if you dance around subjects so I just always call what I see. -Leo xx

Posted on July 11, 2014
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Damn

I’m very upset and feel like I need to write this down. I’ve just had the realisation that I’m likely to spend the rest of my life staying alive and that will be it. Today I found out that I passed my 2nd year of uni (woo-hoo!) but the grade was only a 2:2. What sparked this post wasn’t actually any of that though. I’ve not made a big deal of this (for obvious reasons,) but my memory of anything unless it’s very significant to me is very bad. All I can really remember is basic facts/equations and stuff that is very personal to me.

The thing that made me bother to type this out was that a close friend told me something that is a big deal to her academically and I couldn’t remember it until I was prompted. I wouldn’t say I’m selfish at all, -I make time for everyone and anyone but what good is it unless I can remember things? This, in itself probably makes me somewhat redundant for everything let alone getting a job. I mean; who in their right mind would employ this brain-damaged fuck!?

I’m going to have to start writing things down at the end of the day (or maybe as they happen!) and revising them.

I’m a very literal guy but what’s the point in living to exist? I know you could make the argument that everything (including me and you) on an atomic level is about 13.7 billion years old. And so our existence in the grand scheme of everything is beyond macroscopic. Maybe I’m just a self-centred arsehole?

In a bit,

-Leo

Posted on June 18, 2014
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Song about acting like you don’t give a fuck when you care a lot!

Posted on January 21, 2014
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Why I Will Never Have a Girlfriend - nothingisreal.com

made me smile :)

Posted on September 4, 2013
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Thank You!!!!

In 2 and a half weeks (if all goes well) I’ll be back at uni and I know not many will read this but I just want to thank everyone for everything. I guess that it’s fair to say that the past year and a half has been a strange time in my life. So again; thank you all so much -even if you think what you did was small and made no difference. I would make individual shout-outs but there are too many to mention and I’d probably miss people out -not because I’m not grateful but because I was KO’d for a lot of it! I just hope that I don’t screw up again and hey; I’m living proof that where there’s no sense there’s no feeling! Yeah, I had to finish on a joke!

Take care always,

-Leo